Where we are

SO- This week was busy- I was gone more than I usually am and I did not like it. When we decided that I would not continue to babysit, we also talked about the possibility of me taking on another family with work. That would put me up to 30ish hours a week. I talked to my supervisor about it, told the babysitting families that I would be done, and began plans to add another family to my work schedule. I thought it would be fine, but all week I was stressed and worried about being gone from home so much. It would basically be three full days away from home each week. Thomas is almost crawling, and I kept thinking that I would possibly be missing so many of his "firsts" being gone so much. When I left for work on Thursday, Ella cried, the sad cry, and I hated leaving. So- Chad and I talked, and I have now decided to keep babysitting, to help supplement income, and continue to work with 2 families, instead of adding three. I have felt so much better since making that decision. We will figure something out with the babysitting kids when Chad is here working-and if chores don't get done, no biggy. They will eventually. I just want to be here with my kids. I am glad for a great supervisor and an agency that is totally family centered. She has been totally supportive with this process and me changing my mind.

I am looking forward to Thanksgiving. We are having a fun group of people here that day. Chad's sister's family, cousins from Colorado and my friend Marylu- (maryLuuuooooo as Ella says). I am excited to be hosting. I have another full week until Thanksgiving, but will have no work Thursday through the weekend.

So- life continues. Always new, always changing- never predictable- but in all that, I know it is a gift from a good God, who is always on my side and always nudging me in the right direction. In that, I find my rest.